Seeking..

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

well after a loooong preperation we are done with ah kai's wedding on the 9th may 2009..
i kinda change the blog address and well i am by all means still happy to the fullest being able to type out whats choking inside me ^-^

I have no idea what to do..
after all this time we are tgt i still finding out lies and all..
whenever we quarrel he told me he is alone with his guys frens and always torture me over the phone + uncountable sms saying i with flings thats why i dont meet and wanna have time alone actually i am with another guy blaablaaa..
BUT IS NOT ME!!! Is him whom is the one having fun ard taking pic happily!!!
is not 1st 2nd but 3rd time i caught him on pic when we quarrel and i am just alone by the beach he was with his frens and GIRLSSSSS well he deny but PHOTOS prove it all.. lmao.. i jus happen to knw one recently well altho is a pic quite yea i mean QUITE long ago but still how long are we tgt onli 2yrs + so yea all this fuck shit is enuff to load the bowl....

a short duration of "our" 2yrs+ what i have is being cheated, lied and broken promises.. how much more do i have to bear? yea u say is the past.. but is just u are getting smarter not to get caught even if so do u even think i bother bringing out again? ur broken promises is one trade mark of yours that not only me but even ur frens knws abt..

Yea i use alot of cruel words and my actions hurts.. but i did told u i dont really wanna hold on to this relationship any longer and u told me u will sure lead a life of drugs away... but yea i can just fuck care and ignore.. but even not as a gf but a normal fren in future u knw i will not jus let u stray off like that... even u urself knws i treasure frenship alot.. but still....

u quarrel with my frens and now u are un-welcomed by them to any outings.. but cant blame them as u started it first.. well u said u dont mind if i go out with them but wow this that happen previous week u took it up and kp me today! wtf!!!!

i even left earlier so i can meet u to get your puppies stuff and i felt u dont appreciate it! because upon meeting u still kp about jerevin craps again.. well yea i told u i wasnt sure he will be there anot BECAUSE when me and yiling rch sch already he is not there! i was told he went interview so i dont ask much! and when rch there i did update u on the place i am but u kp in the sms also.. i update u that i am not sharing table and having private session with bev on another table cos the table is not big enuff so we have to split ALSO wrong! is jus a random update of my lil daily life and u said i was guilty so i told u i sat with bev... omfg.. this is totally craps.. upon explaining all the things previous week now u bring it alllllll up again...

i felt tired.. even more tired then previous r.s i have.. i think the reason for this is because i once trusted so much we can wrk out but is getting worst.. is draining me out.. i jus hope u go away...

XII™

5/12/2009 11:00:00 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Finally after a looooonnnnnnnnggggg wait..
Once upon a muffin is now renamed peanut by bf =.=

An angel upon our first meet at the dog farm..
Now a DEVIL at home!!
Nibble here and there and her favorite is our toe!!
Freak pain but still...
Cute lil bear bear.. lmao..

FiFi still have not got use to her and is freaking her ass out even tho she is 3 times bigger then the poodle..

right now she is confine to her playpan for being a bad doggy for bitting our toe,newspaper and anything she is able to reach...
She have also pay a visit to our Earth God alter =.=
lmao.. thats for now...
she just got home and have to rest for a week before meeting guest..
shop owner advise to only bring her out when she is older....
lmao!!
so stay tune people!!

XII™

4/12/2009 10:27:00 PM

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Infantile little you..
I pity every single moment you point at someone to reproach on whenever u feel your liability is shaken..
Is imaginable and totally fascinating to presage you twitching behind your screen just by reading the chat and replying to me..
The history of 2years near 7th month you match make me with guys that i lost count..
For each guys that every surface around me during this period,will be a potential man I could start a relationship with and get married later on..
Your resistive mindset is like venom that you use to murder me with your bold words..
Any guy that pass by my alluring life may it be my friend or someone whom I spoken to before will just be a nightmare I have to bare with your venom..
I need a sensible solution garnish with a versatile conclusion....

I have a mighty jumbo heart but if you want it to be as big as the universe =) I will be more then happy to lay the red carpet for you to find a new path on a universal heart relationship..

PS: My apologies to my Socks, Tiew and Ping i really have no mood to chat. . . .

XII™

4/09/2009 12:16:00 AM

Thursday, April 2, 2009

back in singapore after KL trip with ping,socks,tiew yiling, jelly,babaly and bf..
Pictures still with tt TIEW YILING so stay tune..

Trip is fun.. nth much to buy..
but genting with classmates is nvr wrong cos bf dont dare to sit quite alot of rides =.=
celebrate tiew's bday at KL...

last but not least
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TIEW YI LING...
may all your wishes come true arh...

XII™

4/02/2009 11:36:00 PM

Thursday, March 26, 2009

I felt like it takes forever to end a day =.=
I barely sleep more then 6 hours for the past 2 days...

Right time to do some lil update while my room is being painted by dad =.=
Got to shift back the stuff later back into the room which is now all scattered around the living room..
The house looks like is just being rob la zzZZz

Loads of things to be done this weekend..
Birthday celebration follow by a trip to KL and Genting..
Looking forward towards this trip with my cliques and of cos BF first trip overseas with me..

Hui Ping did a checklist for me yesterday lolx cos even going swimming with them i often forget to bring my stuff..
I hate to pack.. So Friday bf will pack for me =x lmao..

=.= my bed frame will only come next tue.. so i guess i have no choice but to sleep sofa bed with bf till i left Singapore..
LoLx.. Was talking to bf that I got the urge to go zoo . . . i wanna feed goat or something. . . freaking random la but well. . . BORED LA ! ! !

Time for some job hunting!! is toooooo boring...
lolx afterall is time to save up for a guitar i promise to buy when i officially start work..
hoping to lessen bf's burden and pamper him as much as i can la . . .
But nooooo provoking me ah CLARENCE ANG and remember the promisessss u made =.=

XII™

3/26/2009 11:06:00 AM

Friday, March 20, 2009

Yep~ the pic tells it all..
Bf went to do this yesterday..
19th march 2009 my name is engrave on his upper wrist area..

So sweet la..
but i did your name first ok so dont hao lian ok bf! lolx..

Ok well today major construction in my room..
gonna change wall colour and take down the custom make shelf is a hell of a time..
first we dun have the machine to take out the screw..
so my dad and I were in all sorts of weird position and using every inch of our bicep muscle to turn the screw..

finally we got all dis mental and while we are carrying out the furniture to dispose..
the size is too big to get out of the main gate la..
So frm doing all the gym-like workout in the room, now is some karateh session..
we kick the furniture till the wood break jus enough to squeeze out of the door..

When i enter my room i felt like someone rob my house =.= my things are everywhere!!!!
so my mom give me a big black plastic bag YEAH BIG ONG can fit a human inside tt kind!
When i am done with packing the black bag is almost full la!! imagine i got so much nonsense la..

bf got so much things at my house..
but instead of bring them home he bring home the monitor and the old cpu back home..

well the trip back home is filled with cold sweat and when we got down the bike is as tho we got reborn..
the cpu is sandwich inbetween us and using one hand bf is holding the screen..
when i was riding the bike i feel the shakyness at the back and the cpu keep hitting my helmet and my back..

ok now is time to get new bed and new computer desk...
will be dropping by ikea or courts.. hehehehehe..
thats all the hoo haa for today XD

XII™

3/20/2009 12:41:00 AM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

haha went to collect our passport on 17th march and yes !!!
thanks to a nice guy who have an interest on bf that help him speed up the process..
upon passing the passport to bf he say "handsome man"
and keep asking him to take care dont lost passport blaa blaa blaa..
i am was actually sitting down then i stand up cos i am super afraid of him..
u sld see the way he hold bf's thumb when scan for thumb print alamak scan mine use two finger scan his he use TWO HANDS ok 1 tiny thumb all 10 fingers on it lmfao..

but still TY for rushing the passport..
and of cos thanks to ping ping, socks,bev, Tiew I and Tiew II for being so kind to wait with us till the end =x rofl yea because the air ticket promo end at 18th and is stressing me up so when i get the pass port i kan happy can..

next stop bugis.. lol after shopping like god dame long la.. cos i wanna shop for cheap stuff then we eye on this pair $11.90 only!!!! BF is nice la he keep ask me buy wadever i wan but i insist on getting shoe cheap cheap..ty bf..

And then is this shirt that he keep asking me to wear!!! he say dame suit me =.= so finally he got it for me.. "ty" bf

then while walking to temple to pray i saw this tank top $8.90 + NEW SCHOOL DESIGN!!!ty bf!

before we head home we went toilet then when we come out my eyes was on the toy catcher machine!
HAHA bf went to change $10 and caught mickey with 1 try... TY BF

this is my favourite Pinky Lilo also with 1 try..
BUT $8 with empty hand =x
but not bad la got 2 stuff toy with $10 quite a deal also.. TY BF~~

Over size shirt.. =.= where to get small shirt anyone?

and WEEEEEEE bud bud is back from hong kong!!
she got me this cute stuff la!
and i jus realise my phone cannot hang things =( nvm i will hang on wallet XD ty bud..

well thats all for now..
still waiting for Tiew I to come back from Perth..
Gonna paint my room and take down some furniture maybe i gonna paint my cardboard black..
get a black bed frame and a new black table..

XII™

3/19/2009 01:03:00 AM