Seeking..

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Lets start from sat..
went out with bf to do his tattoo..
As usual he finish tattoo session and keep looking at his leg..

Keep see see see from penisula till taka till heeren and every glass that have reflection of his darn leg he will not fail to see =.= tmd..

Is a hot day.. and we are trying to siam all the sunlight by standing on the shadow of the traffic lights and any object that is tall and cast a shadow..

then while crossing over the road we saw this tall ang moh guy..
we are about to cross but the light turn red..
then bf go behind the 2m+ guy and shout to me "DAR HERE GOT SHADE"
lmao so we both stand behind him on his shadow..
so the gf of his told him he did a good deed..

then at night together with hweeying her kid, bro & gf. me & bf we went swensens about midnight to have ice-cream XD~ bf's treat..

fell sick today was like burning when i woke up so i missed grandma's bday celebration =
happy birthday grandma =p

was reading yiling's blog jus now and lmao with bf..
i show him her newly zheng bike and i wonder what happen when it rain and those christmas bulb coil around her bike touch water and gives out eletricity..
LoL CMF new hairdo one lo..
thanks la gf u make me luff at least, even tho i dont see u in sch..

hope limin is doing fine..

XII™

11/30/2008 11:55:00 PM

Friday, November 28, 2008

what's done is done..
what's said is said..

if i was to continue..
I will be wearing the same dumb mask..

i give up..
maybe time will give me strength to face the world.

XII™

11/28/2008 02:03:00 AM

Run away...
Exam later at 11am.
Totally mood-less to study.

I have no idea why am i still hanging on to something that torture me.
Every single time we met, every single time we hug.
It seems like my open wound is contacted with salt.
Endless pain.
Silent cries..

If is because of a word responsibility that I bestow on that torture me till today..
I rather be a faggot and totally ignorant.

You fail to see the pain in me.
Look back at my past entries including my old blog..
Since when I am truely happy?
And u told me you will give me happiness?

XII™

11/28/2008 12:50:00 AM

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Skip school..
Was thinking to go but..
I decide to skip it in order not to stress myself out by putting a happy front..

Nightmare huant me even if I took a nap for awhile..
I will wake up feeling so much hatered and sadness...
I want a pair of wings..
I wanna fly...

Mr William called and ask me to do test 1 tml wtf.. after so long... I need to be in sch at 11am la..
p.s sorry mates I didnt attend sch..

p.s bud bud, all the best for ur performance on sat and good luck on job hunting..

XII™

11/27/2008 02:14:00 AM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Stale

I have no idea how i landed up like this..
No matter how monolithic I try to look..
I can't escape the fact i am bleeding within...

Insomnia is my best pal.
Even my vampire life of slping in the day is gone..

I am not a devotional watcher.
Neither did I disobey the customary hours of sleep I should have.
Is just whenever I close my eyes and think of u..
Twinges of sadness begin to fill me up..

Everything seems so anemic.
Going to school becomes a routine to see others play and joke around.
At least seeing and being in the laughter and fun is a form of painkiller.
But.. I am so affix with my "Happy Face" now.
Till I lost myself.

XII™

11/25/2008 01:36:00 AM

Saturday, November 22, 2008

First of all the hair~
excuse me ur hair got disconnected and grow out from the shirt?
Look at that hair shape! something need to be done yo!
your neck look like is deform? body banding with a neck which is our of proportion?
Contrast on the face =.= come-on you are under shades or what?!
BF's so fair and urs so dark.
change the date la~
unless u can edit every single thing..

you got the guts to set this as DP then no guts to continue doing it, afraid of being sued of misused of picture..

come'on and stop adding my friends like they are all retarded not knowing this pic is mine..
lolx

BOTTOM LINE
THIS whole shit is between ur sis and clar!
the divorce have nth to do a shit about me!
so pls get this clear and out of my life..

wanna get me piss by doing this? by all means..
is not wasting my time is just your stupidity is ruining your future..

XII™

11/22/2008 01:48:00 AM

Friday, November 21, 2008

finally things are almost done...
next week after all the dame presentation and an exam on the 28th~

i going back to my skip sch pattern XD
holiday is coming =\
my aim is to swim at least two times a week and gym two time XD
i wanna built 6 pax =.= duhz..

went to pass bf a fan lol..
imagine my dad riding on my pink scooter and me sitting at the back holding the fan~
rofl.. then when we move the blade in the fan starts moving -.-
is like a windmill la..
lol~ i hold till my arm aches by the time i reach there~

bf still refuse to eat the cup noodle i bought for him like decades ago =.=

wEeeE class cancel tml...
ROAR~~!!

XII™

11/21/2008 01:00:00 AM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Gonna do up the evm project.
Just like Mr Trevor says is the skeleton.
Gonna hand over the skeleton to hui ping and the rest to finish the flesh part.
Then i venture into my outdoor project =.=
gosh...

and YES i going to kusu island!!
tmd was suppose to go last week but cos of projects cant go!
i gonna go this time cos i broke my promise to go with bf!
and is unfair to let him down another time!
I need to relax as well ok! i am also human hor!

lolz well someone turn up today.. but where is the help!!!!??
when we discuss HE just conveniently sit there~

ps: i miss bf XD

XII™

11/19/2008 03:45:00 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

Thanks BF for getting me printer.
SO touch, u give me a surprise by dropping by to give me a brand new printer.
LoLx.. now i dont have to run up and down to your house to print =p
you're the best...

*Good luck to min min i hope she recover soon*

Finally pom presentation is over.
Thank god i didn't screw it up.
I have done what chong say to add in to the report.

Outdoor project is on the way.
This time round i share the burden of the project with the rest of the team lolx..
cos i got lazy to do alone.

EVM i am done with a proper draft..
OK FUCK THIS EVM project!
i have 14 members and more then half is not bothered!
project is due next week~

For once can someone be bothered?!
yes and Mr SHERMAN i dont care if you got pissed by what i sms u but is true!
who also can do power point! what i need is the fucking report.
Didn't u claim wanting to SAVE people like a saint!
Dont say why i didn't mention about others but u...
Cos in the first place u are the one saying that we both team the rest dont do nvm!
AND NOW WHAT!!!!!
how about saving me! since li min already save u from ODR

I already draft the whole shit up!
Is fustrating when the dateline is close no one give a shit.
Fucking easy what! when event all SHOW YOUR BIG FAT FACE so teacher will know WHa!! that siao ehy si bei ON!
If you all dont get organize!
just go to hell..

XII™

11/17/2008 11:53:00 PM

Friday, November 14, 2008

Yes Yes Is shorrrrttt....
I never regret tho lolx..
My hair is long since i am 13 and is time for a change..

Piss with someone real bad..
I feel is not needed to backstab at people.
You are not force to take up a team.

Yi Ling say i v long no update =.=
well i am lazy lol..

is weekend again~~
WEEE for having bf with me~
BOOO for the project which needs so much amendment...

Well I hope to finish me work real quick as bf is dying to go kusu island =.=
A blessing we dont quarrel much this days..
Or is it the project that is shielding me with the negative shit.. lolx..

XII™

11/14/2008 09:41:00 PM

Thursday, November 6, 2008

some sch event today..
is really exciting...

still pissed off with phone as i bought cos of the wifi and gps..
and wtf i dont know how to install the crack gps in the phone.

BF simply have no patient with me as much as he have with others.
Hate it when i cant get things done and still have to argue..

I ask u about it and without second thoughts he ans "I dunno"
which i expected it coming..
is like COME'on dude u dont even ask what happen..

well when u are at my house i ask u how to do it u just brush me of saying?
"ai ya later ur pda screw up, pda very easy screw up one"
THEN BUY THE FUCKING PHONE FOR ME FOR WHAT

u see me almost every other day to solve one problem of mine takes u like how long?!
and only yesterday the simple (no adds on on your internet explorer) took u 1mth + to finally solve my shit!

what u told me that time? " ai ya i think ur laptop need formate la"
when u only took less then 2 min to get it solve..
you did that cos i need to use IE to apparently HELP U download some gothic tune..

sigh..
tho how much i love u, there is still setbacks in the r.s
i dont have to face ur nonsense and even ur wife nonsense ~
is tiring and i need a life not the both of u darkening it..
Dont ask me what she did!! i told u like millions time ALREADY!!
and what u said? "ai ya i jus kill all of them la"

fuck off and leave it then... i have enough..

XII™

11/06/2008 11:10:00 PM

Friends nag that I don't update my blog -.-
Ok fine well I am super busy this days.
When I log in the com I hardly go to msn.

Read Ellen's Blog i hope Colby is doing fine..
Get well soon Colby and FUCK THAT stupid noob doctor..

Someone commit suiside and I saw the body from my mom's room.
Well hope the lady rest in peace..

Bf got me HTC Diamond phone.
Till now i am still jumping up and down trying the function.
He bought me a hooded jacket with skulls on it as well ^^
Thanks Dar.

Well I will update again cos thats all i can remember..

XII™

11/06/2008 01:48:00 AM