Seeking..

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

well after a loooong preperation we are done with ah kai's wedding on the 9th may 2009..
i kinda change the blog address and well i am by all means still happy to the fullest being able to type out whats choking inside me ^-^

I have no idea what to do..
after all this time we are tgt i still finding out lies and all..
whenever we quarrel he told me he is alone with his guys frens and always torture me over the phone + uncountable sms saying i with flings thats why i dont meet and wanna have time alone actually i am with another guy blaablaaa..
BUT IS NOT ME!!! Is him whom is the one having fun ard taking pic happily!!!
is not 1st 2nd but 3rd time i caught him on pic when we quarrel and i am just alone by the beach he was with his frens and GIRLSSSSS well he deny but PHOTOS prove it all.. lmao.. i jus happen to knw one recently well altho is a pic quite yea i mean QUITE long ago but still how long are we tgt onli 2yrs + so yea all this fuck shit is enuff to load the bowl....

a short duration of "our" 2yrs+ what i have is being cheated, lied and broken promises.. how much more do i have to bear? yea u say is the past.. but is just u are getting smarter not to get caught even if so do u even think i bother bringing out again? ur broken promises is one trade mark of yours that not only me but even ur frens knws abt..

Yea i use alot of cruel words and my actions hurts.. but i did told u i dont really wanna hold on to this relationship any longer and u told me u will sure lead a life of drugs away... but yea i can just fuck care and ignore.. but even not as a gf but a normal fren in future u knw i will not jus let u stray off like that... even u urself knws i treasure frenship alot.. but still....

u quarrel with my frens and now u are un-welcomed by them to any outings.. but cant blame them as u started it first.. well u said u dont mind if i go out with them but wow this that happen previous week u took it up and kp me today! wtf!!!!

i even left earlier so i can meet u to get your puppies stuff and i felt u dont appreciate it! because upon meeting u still kp about jerevin craps again.. well yea i told u i wasnt sure he will be there anot BECAUSE when me and yiling rch sch already he is not there! i was told he went interview so i dont ask much! and when rch there i did update u on the place i am but u kp in the sms also.. i update u that i am not sharing table and having private session with bev on another table cos the table is not big enuff so we have to split ALSO wrong! is jus a random update of my lil daily life and u said i was guilty so i told u i sat with bev... omfg.. this is totally craps.. upon explaining all the things previous week now u bring it alllllll up again...

i felt tired.. even more tired then previous r.s i have.. i think the reason for this is because i once trusted so much we can wrk out but is getting worst.. is draining me out.. i jus hope u go away...

XII™

5/12/2009 11:00:00 PM